like father&mother like daughter.

Dari dulu pas aku masih kecil orang2 selalu bilang, "ih kamu ini mirip banget sama papa kamu." *secara fisik*
walaupun lebih tepatnya, aku itu *katanya* lbh mirip ama mama-nya papa-ku.(mata segaris, sipit banget dan setiap kali aku ketawa pasti nggak keliatan matanya!)
Tapi... beranjak aku gedean, orang2 bilang aku lebih mirip mama-ku *apalagi sejak aku punya lipetan mata, hehehehe =)))* tapi... yah tetep deh, kalo aku ketawa matanya tinggal segaris juga =p*
Secara fisik aku sih lebih merasa mirip sama papa sih emang, tp yah... sebenernya aku lbh kepengen mirip mama phisically. karena apa? if u look at my mum, she's 50 this year. tapi, my mum doesn't look like 50!
I actually admire her beauty! =)Grad

Secara karakter, aku mungkin adalah perpaduan dari sifatnya papa+mama-ku.
Sifatku yang katanya seenaknya sendiri, itu sumbangan dari papa-ku.
Sifatku yang kalo liat barang langsung suka dan kepikiran beli maka tindakan selanjutnya adalah membeli, itu adalah sumbangan dari mama-ku.
Selain penurunan sifat yang mungkin diturunkan secara individual ama papa-mama, aku juga punya sifat turunan yg mungkin akhirnya papa-mama kompakan buat nurunin bakatnya ke aku seorang, dari ketiga anak ceweknya, yaitu: kecintaan aku sama dunia pembelajaran, pendidikan yah dunia persekolahan gitu lah.
Aku sendiri nggak pernah nyangka bahwa aku malah yang akhirnya ngikutin jejak papa-mama di dunia pendidikan.
Secara aku itu paling nggak suka sekolah dan belajar jaman SMA dulu.
Aku emang paling suka baca buku, tapi yg aku baca bukan buku sekolah tapi buku2 lain yg nggak berhubungan ama pelajaran hehehe =p
Tapi mungkin bener apa yg orang bilang kalo kita cinta sama apa yg kita kerjakan maka semuanya jadi menyenangkan sekali!
Aku mulai suka belajar, suka sekolah ketika aku kuliah di Melbourne ambil jurusan Media and Communication.
I love what Iam doing and I enjoy everything I do in that uni year!

Dan sekarang...
sama seperti papa yg mendedikasikan hidupnya untuk dunia pendidikan.
sama seperti mama yg juga ngajar paruh waktu juga.
sama seperti papa-mama, aku ngajar paruh waktu di program diploma Ubaya.
aku yang dulu nggak suka sekolah, sekarang malah jadi dosen. hehehe =p *what a contradiction!*

And yes! Someday, aku kepengen juga punya TK yang penuh ama anak2 kecil yg lucu2.*tp yg nakal2 dilarang daftar! hehehe =p*

I am officially 22.

Time really passed by so fast, too fast sometimes. It felt like just yesterday when I celebrated my 21 st B'day and it was memorable because of all of u my Melbournian girls! =)))

So, here I am, a year later...

Turning from 21 to 22. Celebrating the birthday with different people in a different place. Yet, it's still a birthday to remember.

Thank youuu to all you guys in the office! *this is the very first time I got so many birthday wishes in a day, yeah! after High school year hehehe =)))* to mom and dad who didn't give any present but give enough money to buy my own present =))) to my grandma and sisters, thank youuu for the presents =))) for all the sms-es from all of you guys who still remember my b'day eventhough we're parted by more than 3000 miles+ Thank youuu =))) and last but not least... to my dearest partner, who made it through to send me flowers on my 22nd B'day! *and it's amazing how u would send not the so-common red roses! that suits the day! =))), thank youuu!*

Well, I'm officially 22 then!

the wedding.the marriage.

I love wedding magazines.
I love wedding-stuffs websites.
I love" the wedding planner" movie
Well, I think I always got excited when it comes to a wedding... and I've thought to be a wedding planner, someday...*yeah, I got inspired by the movie! =D*
But...
As time goes by, as I grow and as I am actually already in that phase of have to think a little bit more about the actual marriage NOT the wedding. I've began to think...
Would I love my marriage?
Would I love my partner forever and ever?
Would I be able to bear all his habits? i.e: my dad ALWAYS snores in his sleeps and I can't stand it.But somehow my mum can stand it for the last 25+ years...
and foremost, would I be as happy as I would be on my wedding day? *well, I've always think about my small-private-outdoor wedding in such a way that I think I would be the happiest person in the world just for that night =D*
Yeah, maybe I'm still too young for all these... but older friends and colleagues made me think a little bit faster about this =D

Well, I guess the answers to that questions would come out by the time I'm in the actual marriage not just the wedding.
I guess there are things that God has set you into that would not be as what we've perceived.
The wedding and The marriage is one of it.


weekend.my'me' time.monday morning @the office.

Experienced the so-usual-weekend, for the last few weekends made me went out and spent my last weekend in more sensible and decent way.

So, I woke up at 7am!*yeah, my body clock has its own alarm that always sets me up at 7-ish am since I started working 3 months ago!* then I read my morning newspapers and listened to the celebrity's gossips on TV.*yes!Indonesian TV has celeb's gossips shows in the morning!starts @6-ish am! every single morning!*
7.30am I went back to my bedroom and watched some TV shows and I fallen back to sleep until 11*it's weekend =D*
Then, I began to make plans and to decide whether I should go out for salon treatments or go out and check out the newest mall in town.
So... There I was few hours later checking out the new mall.By myself and free to go wherever I wanted to go.
It might sounds so weird that I actually enjoyed that.
But, YES I did that and I ENJOYED it.

I love going to the mall or going shopping by myself.
I love the feeling of, you don't have to follow anyone and you can do whatever you like.
I just love it.

So... I didn't sleep the wholeee day and instead of going to the office with fresh face on Monday, I looked sooo drunk because of over-charging my body with sleeping the wholeee day on Sunday. *Too much slepping is NOT GOOD for your body and facial expressions.Tested and Proven by me.DON'T TRY this at anytime.*

Today I went to the office and I didn't look drunk!
Yeah, I had a pretty good weekend, at least it was a decent weekend!

5 more days to another good-weekend! *I'm thinking of getting head-to-toe treatments@ my fave salon*
Yeah! =DDD

Have a Great week, everyone!

this sounds like me.

An innovator is someone...
- who's creative and take inspirations from the surroundings.
- who enjoys fun, flexible and with few rules working enviroment.
- who thinks themselves as imaginative, sociable and sympahtetic.
- who makes decisions based more on her heart than her head.

Alrighty...
All that sounds so like myself. haha! =D
And guess what's the higlights of all that?
Well, I tend to do my best work when I started at the last minutes (that's based on a UK survey, thankyouverymuch =D)
And... Best carrer options are something to with teaching or counselling for others developments. (so, looks like I'm on the right track so far =D)

Anyway... if any of you guys want to try this personality test, here's the web link: www.BBC.co.uk/science
(look for the personality test "what am I like?")

*Thankyou Ray! who has shown me this =D

Life goes on?Maybe Not?

In these last months I felt that I did nothing much and that I've spent time doing nothing that really what I've wanted or expected. Or to make it easy... I GOT STUCKED! STUCKED in my own life.

Gosh... I felt so horrible yet I felt that I've made my choices I need to be responssible with my own choices. which was... went back home to Indo.

There are days when I felt that I made a WRONG decision. There are days that when I felt made a right decision.

I felt WRONG when I realised that I've nothing to do here. I spent my time doing nothing.  I'm ashamed with myself. Oh God.

I felt right... *which is still questionable up until now, even though certain things happened and proven to be a right reason for me to be home.* when I was totally sick and needed help from experts, and I was finally operated and cured. And u know what... I felt right because I finally know how to DRIVE! hehehehe ;) (and I already 'bang'- ed/ smashed my car into my own house's gate) hahaha ;p

So now... I begin to question, is it true life goes on? if it's true life goes on, then why don't I have something that really make my life feels like going forward?

Ps: To Jan, if she read this... Jan... I miss u and ur spirit of life. I'm pretty lost...

Birthdays are always Beautiful!!

Kemaren, aku pegi ke pesta ultah ke 18'e adek'e temenku, technically tapi yah... anggepan'e jugak adek kecil ini temen-ku juga lah... cuman umurnya sama mbek adekku. hehe =p

Ceritanya sih... eliz nggak tau apa2 kalo dia bakalan dikasih suprise party gt di rumahnya ;p (walaupun sempet ngeharap2 ada dapet suprise2 gt, khan liz? hehe ;p) so, kita rencana'in pesta kecil2an di rumah nya eliz dari beberapa hari kemaren. mulai dari bikin2 rancangan balon yg mau di apung in di kolam renang sampe rencana mau gimana nyuruh eliz pergi dr siang sampe sore supaya kita bisa ngehias rumahnya.

It's really2 nice and kinda touchy to see her cried when she finally walked into the house and see all of us... ekspresi mukanya... LucuBanget! dan mengharukan! abisan dikasik suprise malah nangis!keras lagi nangis nya ;p

Eliz is a really nice young girl that I've known for years since she's 6 or maybe even younger, throughout the years she becomes even prettier and more mature than what I've expected. kemaren itu adalah bentuk rasa kasih sayang dari kitaaa semuaaa yg sayang sama eliz. (eliz emang cocok buat disayang :p) semoga ulang tahun kali ini yg penuh kejutan (dari acara make over @TP sampe terwujud nya mimpi dealova!hehehe) jadi ulang tahun yg unforgettable buat eliz.

Birthdays are always beautiful ;)

Arti Hidup

Arti Hidup

Hidup berarti, tantangan yang harus dihadapi.

Hidup berarti, perjuangan yang harus dimenangkan.

Hidup berarti, kesusahan yang harus dihadapi.

Hidup berarti, rahasia yang harus digali.

Hidup berarti, tragedi yang harus direfleksikan.

Hidup berarti, kegembiraan yang harus disebarkan.

Hidup berarti, cinta yang harus dinikmati.

Hidup berarti, tugas yang harus dilaksanakan.

Hidup berarti, romantika yang harus dirangkul.

Hidup berarti, resiko yang harus diambil.

Hidup berarti, anugerah yang harus dipergunakan.

Hidup berarti, impian yang harus diwujudkan.

Hidup berarti, perjalanan yang harus diselesaikan.

Hidup berarti, janji yang harus dipenuhi.

Hidup berarti, keindahan yang harus dikagumi.

Hidup berarti, pertanyaan yang harus dijawab.

Hidup berarti, kesempatan yang harus dipakai.

Hidup berarti, persoalan yang harus dipecahkan.

Hidup berarti, kesulitan yang harus dikalahkan.

Hidup berarti, kekecewaan yang harus diatasi.

Hidup adalah rahmat yang harus dipelihara, dicinta, dikembangkan, disyukuri dan diwartakan.

Maka bangkit dan bergeraklah sekarang juga.

*Puisi di atas aku ambil dari halaman belakang buku novena. Dari pertama kali aku baca aku tersentuh dan diingatkan sama Tuhan tentang hidupku.

Trus abis gitu, nggak beda berapa lama setelahnya aku divonis dokter dengan suatu penyakit dan harus dioperasi segera.

Jelas aku takut dan sedih.

Tapi, puisi ini dan kasih semua orang yang mendukung aku menjalani ini semua membuat langkah ku ringan dan percaya bahwa ada kasih, ada berkat dan ada rencana indah Tuhan di balik penyakit ini.

Terima kasih untuk semuaaa yang sudah mendoakan. Aku sudah baik2 kok sekarang.

I love you mom! and everyone! muach!

kenapa hidup harus direncanakan?

semakin deket ke masa transisi dari 20-21 dan hal-hal laen yg menyangkut transisi hidup-ku yg lebih ber'pengaruh' daripada ultah itu sendiri, aku makin banyak berpikir.

berpikir kenapa hidup harus sampe segitunya direncanakan? apa segitu pentingnya punya rencana? apa guna rencana kalo pada akhirnya, rencana tinggal rencana? yah khan? I used to be this person who believed in long-term plans, (dulu: percaya abis lulus kuliah 2 thn kemudian akan menikah! haha! *lha sekarang mah, kagak mungkin! =p*) karena pernah segitu percaya nya sama rencana masa depan tp toh akhirnya bubar, yah aku jadi berubah haluan pemikiran dong!

I've become a person without any long-term plans. i know this sounds horrible to some of u, but believe me, i'm ok with it- fact: i love it! haha!

sekarang, bagi ku hidup adalah hidup yg harus dijalani dengan hati yg ringan tanpa beban, tanpa embel2 "ntar gini khan?" dan tanpa "ntar abis ini apa?"

what's next? is a good question, but not so much for me, though. it's just that i like the way i live my life today. and believe me, i do have plans... but not so much like, in 2 years time i'll...

i don't expect ppl to be in the same line as i do, but at least i've said it out.

i don't plan on life. i live on life. =)

I made it!

It's been a while, yes? yes. I just want to write that... I've officially graduated as a Bachelor of Communication (Prof.Comm.) by Monday, 28 th November 2005. And... I'm gonna be at the graduation ceremony on 14 th December 2005. Yey! =)

I'm sooo glad yet sad this whole journey of Uni life ended. But, I'm pretty happy that I ended it good, or maybe shall I say bit extraordinary? Well, I'm pretty cool with being extraordinary, anyway. hehe. I'm just happy and bit proud =p that I finished Uni at the age of 20. Not to mention I did it over 2 years for a full bachelor degree, plus I'm gladly to say I've passed the whole uni year w/ only 3 Pass marks, which equals to C. (oh well, too bad) and made through w/ average of Credits, Distinctions,  and ocassional High Distinctions, which equals to B to A+!Wooohhhaaa... The point is I made it through! hehe.

***Hooorrraaayyy!!! =)))

Thanks to: first on the line would be MUM! =) and there's the rest of the families =)

Thanks to: JanLin =), all Melbourne's friends! (you know who u r), Miaaa, dan semuaaanyaaa yg ada di indo, suroboyo (siapapun itu) hehe.